I realized today, after an extremely emotionally exhausting Monday, that I complain some. Okay, okay. I complain a lot. About big things. About small things. About most things. I complain about people who complain. And about people who don't. And about their dogs. I spend my day listing all the bad things in my life (or your life, or his life) and a lot of times I completely miss the good things. The blessings. The love. Instead of smiling when one of my kids wants to sit on my lap, I get annoyed because the other three don't. Instead of being thankful for my husband's job that provides enough that I can stay home, I let myself feel overwhelmed by my "duties" as a homemaker. I'm getting a little tired of feeling like crap all. the. time. And I hate that it's me making me feel that way.
In the hopes of salvaging the rest of this week, I'm going to give you a list of just a few things that I really am thankful for. The things and people who make me smile on a daily basis. The things I want to focus on from here on out.
- My family. The real family I have chosen for myself, from my husband on down to the friends I haven't met, but still love like family. The people who love me, accept me, and support me, even when I complain. You know who you are, so I won't name names.
- My home. It may be a mess, but it's safe and warm and big enough for my family.
- My kids. These guys deserve their own category. I can't imagine my life without the little munchkins all up in my face all day. It just wouldn't be right.
- My new house. It's a new adventure, just waiting for us to climb aboard!
- My God. Today is proof that I need the grace He offers, and don't deserve a thing. How can I only see bad when His plan is so good?
Most of all, tonight I am thankful that I will have tomorrow to try this all again. I can make better decisions. I will use softer words. My smile will appear more often than my frown. And if I don't, feel free to complain. :)
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